We are quite open about our infertility treatment. At work the frequent trips to the clinic during office hours need some sort of explanation after all. Some close colleagues know we have had IVF and that we are currently in limbo land. I leave out more details though. I wouldn't dream of talking about the thickness of my endometrium, the state of my ovaries or number of follicles... That somehow doesn't make good coffee machine talk.
Close friends, family, fellow bloggers, support fora, mailing lists we all need for the moral support. So we share our story. On this blog and in real life. In between, during and after treatments. And it is wonderful to be able to talk about our emotions if we need to, great that people don't feel akward about asking us what is happening and nice that others share their story with us too. It is sweet that people hope for us and sympathise with us.
Last week somebody enquired about when I would have my period next. Admittedly that felt a bit weird. I mean... Just for a second or so. I don't really mind, because after all when my next period comes we go the hospital again. And maybe maybe we can start the treatment again. And maybe maybe maybe I will get pregnant. And have a baby. Or two. How lovely would that be!
But it felt weird. Okay, out with it. I think I have ovulated. So within two weeks we go back to the hospital to have my blood tested and determine the number of follicles present. If all is in the limits than we can start. We thought we were getting the hang of all this and being very organised for once. And then all of a sudden it struck me, I'd forgotten something! A quick peek at the last few months in my diary and a few hasty calculations confirmed that our planned city break is, well let's put it this way, rather bad timing.
We'll just have to wait and see when my slightly erratic period actually arrives. And what the blood test shows and if there are more than a few follicles waiting to join the game next month. And if so, if we can fit the possible egg retrieval around our planned holiday. You can't say we don't keep it exciting!
2 comments:
we've been very open too, and I totally empathise with those moments when you think perhaps the boundaries have gone a little too far. But still, good news that treatment might be just around the corner.
hey did this slightly erratic period arrive just yet?
Then some more tests, a bit of treatment, a positive test, a pregnancy: sounds like you're just a few steps away from your dream! ;-)
toi toi toi meissie!!!
kus Ilse
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